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Bye 2010

2011-01-03T17:41:00.002+08:00

Been a long time since I felt reflective. 2010 is gone, so HELLO 2011!

The years are passing faster, many things happened 1 year ago and it still feels recent.

For school, it's my last semester already. In about 2 months' time, I'll be graduating and hopefully, moving on to greater things. I'll be back to the same old cross roads again and making decisions. This time, there will be lesser roads to choose from and I hope I will make a right one. We'll never know about the choices we make until we choose it and take the path.

I do hope my knowledge have increased in these 3 years. I'll be turning 21 soon, the age of adulthood. Doing adult things and making adult decisions. Am I ready? I don't think so. But is anyone ever ready for it? Don't we all just stumble into our next phase of life and in the blink of an eye, everything is over?

Work hard and enjoy life while you can. It may just end in 2012. =P

Social Media

2010-12-09T10:10:00.000+08:00

Social Media, Social Media.
Is is an angel or a devil?

Life As We Know It

2010-10-17T21:36:00.004+08:00

Eat Pray Love wasn't exactly a fantastic movie, neither was is a horrible one. It was just OK. However, it got me thinking, about how so many people are just getting sick and tired of their lives and also losing themselves in the mist of it. Will I end up like her? Just not being able to grasp whatever that is going to be thrown right at my face? It will come hard and fast and I would either brave it through or get thrown off my feet.

No matter how hard we try and how much we do, we always find ourselves in a situation that doesn't entirely makes us happy or satisfies. To put in simply, a situation that sucks. Like it or not, we have just got to deal with it. Let's just admit it, avoiding or beating around the bush doesn't really help at all. Dealing with it involves facing the situation square on and it can get really tough at times. So when you are feeling like the whole world is against you and that your entire life suck, don't just wine about it. DEAL WITH IT! Nobody said it was going to be easy, but once you get through it and when you are looking back, everything would seem like a stroll in the park. I have thought about it and dealing with your situation is the best way to find yourself and be on your way.

There are issues/things that I find it hard to admit, even to myself. Don't you ever get the thought or feeling that if you didn't say something out loud, it wasn't going to be true? But once you said it out loud, everything would become so real that it scares the living daylights out of you? I do. Growing up is one of these issues. I know and am sure that most people, if not everyone has had this issue. It is one of the phases where the whole concept of life itself is being laid upon you. Reality starts knocking on your door and gets you thinking, or rather, worrying about the future. When we were younger and people asked "What do you wanna be when you grow up?" Most would say things like Doctor! Policeman! Fireman! etc. (You get the point) Yes, some people do end up with a job of their ambition. But for the most of us, the answer usually changes and differs quite a lot. Because when you get older and realize that you have to start becoming independent, you will start thinking about stability and which job(s)/lifestyle can give you the most of it. Questions about job, marriage, starting a family, becoming old start to appear. Honestly, I have no answers to any of that at all! Tell me that's normal. (I know it is, but it's just so hard to believe it)

Some may say that I'm worrying way in advance. I mean that next step that I'm taking, is to apply for university (collage) But is it ever too early to think ahead? Time files you know. Better be prepared than be caught off guard. But then again, will anyone ever be prepared enough?

I've had this "growing up" conversation with a good friend about 2 years ago and he shares the same feelings for the situation. However, you never really made any conclusions. What would happen after we leave school? How does it feel to be working full time for many many years? Will we get a job to sustain us? Will we meet someone along the way and get married, have kids? Will we be happy? And the last, most heart stopping question. "How do we deal with death of our loved ones?" That's not a pretty question and I don't want to have to answer it for a very very long time. The answer to all the above: We will never know, the only way to find out is to walk down that path. I have not been in contact with this friend for a very long time. I hope we can find our way back into each others' life and make some conclusions.

It's never easy admitting what you are afraid of, especially if it digs right into your very soul. Yes, here I am admitting that growing up does really freak me out. A lot. There are still things that I find hard admitting to myself, maybe one day, I will. Just like this.

Life is full of decisions

What of?

2010-08-19T01:27:00.001+08:00

I'm afraid it's getting from bad to worse...

I just want one slice of that humongous pie. Just 1 slice. =)

Random updates

2010-08-06T01:00:00.001+08:00

There's so much to say, but not a word comes out.
What really happened? I need to know...

What's there to blog about?

2010-05-26T00:17:00.003+08:00

I'm so lazy to blog. But seeing it being so stagnant, feels like nothing's going on but I'm a busy busy person. I realized that I didn't blog about one of the biggest experience in my life: YES! Cambodia. It's been about a month or so, so there's no kick to talk about it, it will just be stored in my "database". With Facebook around, just go there and take a look at the pictures. It will tell you everything that you need to know.

Yes, it was an awesome trip! An eye-opener and a fun filled trip which allows me to make new friends. After the whole YEP was over, we still met up for a chalet recently and we went to Pulau Ubin to cycle. Great trip, just that the mosquitoes are TOTALLY unnecessary. Same thing, pictures up on FB.

Recent events

1. NYP Open
That blog has become more of my personal blog than this one because I keep updating that. Not a great response to it, but we still made it. That week (last week) was a crazy one. Not able to go home until after 9pm every day. Great THANK YOU to all who helped! IT IS NOW OVER.

2. School
I don't even know which week it is. It's confusing me. Anyway, it's my final year in NYP, like FINALLY. The workload's piling up like shit and I am panicking. All I'm worried about it's grades and the university application. It's driving me nuts! Many negative thoughts swamping in. (Must practice positive self-talk!)

3. Random
- Joining SPCA's fun run with the girls
- Loves IP MAN (donnie yen)
- Feels happy for friends that have officially graduated (can't wait for my turn)
- Having my angel and devil on my shoulders all the time (decisions!)
- Trying my best to get what I want (maybe not very hard though)
- Trying to stay positive and steer away from selfish and self-centered thoughts
- Risks are there for us to take, but what if we cannot handle the consequences/complications of that risk? Do we still take it, or back away? Far Far Away...

That's all folks!

T-shirt!

2010-04-16T13:51:00.002+08:00

1. Put your ipod/itunes music on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 friends who might enjoy doing the memo.

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IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Shop Around

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Hot n Cold (quite true... sometimes hot, sometimes cold. Depends on the person)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Days Go By

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Suddenly I see (???)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Inside Your Heaven (random, but you can make some sense out of it)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Battlefield

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Save You (hmmm...)

WHAT IS 2+2?
Breakeven (haha!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Next Plane Home

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Jenny (???)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
百色风车

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Midnight Romeo (LOL!)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Chapter One (the end is a new beginning?)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Wannabe

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Over It

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Walking Away (WTH!)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Fallin' For You (okayy....)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Undone

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
No boundaries (it's a good thing!)

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Just a Dream (this is creepy-ily true)

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Make it Mine

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Live Like We're Dying

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
If I Let You Go

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
1,2,3,4 (so Yes or No?)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
In Love With a Girl (I'm not gay!)

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Not Fair (guess not.. LOL!)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Poker Face (true...)

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Party in The USA

WHAT WOULD YOU SAY, WHEN YOU MEET YOUR BOSS?
Jesus Take The Wheel

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
T-shirt

YES! Cambodia

2010-03-28T01:13:00.002+08:00

And again, I felt like a fool!~~~

Anyways, it's only a day away to the YEP trip to Siem Reap, Cambodia! More or less packed but still have to re-arrange the things to split the weight. My bag pack is not even half full! I really must get everything ready tomorrow! The excitement is slowly building up but still not quite feeling it yet. Maybe I will once tomorrow night comes.

Other random points...
1. I'm listening to A1 now and remembering how I used to LOVEEE them so very much. They were like my favorite boyband almost 10 years ago. I don't think I'll ever grow tired of their songs, just like Westlife and backstreet boys!

2. After watching Michael Jackson's This Is It, I wished that I had grown up listening to his songs and be able to remember the lyrics. He really is the king of pop and I'm grooving to his music these few days. Beat it, Thriller, I'll be there, Smooth Criminal, Billie Jean, etc.....

3. Tried watching Kong Zi just now but I just couldn't understand it. The language is equivalent to that of Shakespeare.

Maintenance

2010-02-25T22:46:00.002+08:00

Blogging doesn't seem like much of a big deal these days, does it? At least not to me. If it is still the "in" thing, it means that I'm growing out of it. Then what am I doing now? Let's just say I have plenty of time on my hands and I have decided to find something to do. Nothing wrong with penning (typing in this case) down thoughts even if they may be totally random or that nobody reads them.

Just an update since November..

- just finished my 2nd year (although I SHOULD have graduated already)
- exams were hell of a trouble, so were the projects
- going for the YEP trip to Cambodia in end March, which is why I'm not doing my internship now
- My hamster, Mochi, is officially a 3-legged hamster now, and still surviving
- CNY was as usual, come and gone once again.
- cracked my racket, got a new one, a Head one.

That's all i can think of right now.

Re-appearance

2009-11-15T23:23:00.002+08:00

Hi people, this blog has not been touched for a long time.

Tomorrow marks the 5th week of school. This first weeks of school was not very good. The reason being that my workload is piling up like crazy! It's all the way up to my neck already. I think the 6 months of not constantly trying to understand concepts and stuff has really taken a toll on me. I can't seem to get back on track. Or is it really getting tougher?

I need a break! A vacation would be great, but the get-away trip to some island or nearby city is not fully engaged yet. Nothing's been confirmed and I guess by the time I have some time to settle the travel and accommodation, all the tickets would be taken up and there would be no rooms available. God, don't do that to me!

Some news about tennis:
- the POL-ITE games is over after dragging on and on
- we came in 4th, after a fight with TP
- at least we are not last
- the guys were 1st runner up
- training resumes tomorrow

Next 2 weeks:
- ICAs are crashing into me
- got some entrepreneurship competition (Why did i even take it up?!?!)
- hopefully i'll get my interview for the Cambodia trip

I hope I don't go crazy and die after the 2 weeks.

2009-10-14T13:35:00.002+08:00

1. Last few days of TEP!
2. Can't believe it's over already. 6 months just ZOOMED by
3. Don't know to feel happy or not
4. Sem 2's timetable SUCKS!
5. Don't know how to face sem 2
6. Haven complete application form for Youth Expedition Project Cambodia 2010!
7. Helping out in NYP's Open House 2010
8. Haven finished recruiting helpers and it's due tmr!
9. Don't know what's going on with the presentation that is due on friday
10. I'm sick and going to the doctor soon
11. There's a friendly match later and I don't know if i can play or not
12. Please just let me get through this SHIT.

Ordering's Closed

2009-09-18T23:18:00.002+08:00

Sorry people!

The ordering for the items are already closed!

I know it's a little rushed this time round but that's the deadline given to me. If you still wanna get mooncakes, you can go the Takashimaya's basement.

HAPPY MID-AUTUMN FESTIVAL! =D

For those who ordered, THANK YOU VERY MUCH for the support! I'll get it delivered ASAP.

(I have no idea why I can't format the text, something's wrong with blogger)

MOONY MOONCAKES!

2009-09-15T20:05:00.023+08:00

Hello everybody! I have some MORE good deals!

It is for my personal selling and this will be the last time I'm doing it!
As the heading goes, I'm celebrating the Mid-Autumn Festival, 中秋节. Lots of Mooncakes going out at discounted prices! Plus sweet delights, Mochi and Singapore Flyer tickets, specially for STUDENTS!

Do check out the list as follows:

1. BreadTalk Classic Mooncake Box (4pcs)
@ ONLY $27.60
The flavors available are:

- White Lotus with Single Yolk
- Traditional Lotus with Single Yolk
- Black Sesame with Single Yolk
- Pandan with Single Yolk
-Mixed Fruits & Nuts

Here's how it works, you can MIX AND MATCH 4 flavors to make it a box of mooncakes.

Just indicate which flavor(s) you would like to have in a box.

Packaging for BreadTalk Mooncakes

2. Goodwood Park Hotel Snowskin Mooncakes (4pcs) 15% off!
Flavors available:
- Soursop Paste in Snowskin @ $36.30
- Mango with Pomelo in Snowskin @ $36.30
- D24 Durian in Snowskin @ $43.60

3. Sheraton Towers Mooncakes (4pcs)
20% off!

Flavors available:
- White Lotus Seed Paste with Double Egg Yolks @ $39.20
- White Lotus Seed Paste with Single Yolk @ $37.60
- White Lotus Seed Paste @ $36.00
- Lotus Seed Paste with Cranberry and Macadamia Nuts @ $36.00
- Mixed Nuts @ $36.00

In a very nice, classy box

4. Tung Lok Mooncakes
20% off!

Mooncakes available:
- Tung Lok Perfect Duo (4pcs) @ $41.00
- Tung Lok Mini Mooncakes (8pcs) @ $30.80
- Egg Yolk White Lotus (4pcs) @ $34.20
- Macadamia Nuts White Lotus (4pcs) @ $34.20
- Egg Yolk Pandan Lotus with Pistachios (4pcs) @ $34.20

The Tung Lok Perfect Duo is actually the Egg Yolk White Lotus and Egg Yolk Red Lotus (2pcs per flavor)

The Tung Lok Mini Mooncakes is just White Lotus with Egg Yolk

Go to http://www.tunglok.com/ for more information. Tung Lok Mooncakes are Halal certified.

5. Mochi Set @ ONLY $9.50!

Each Mochi Set consists of 5 boxes of different flavors. Each box contains 4 pieces, there will be 20 pieces of mochi in total.

The flavors include:
- Green Tea
- Red Bean
- Yam
- Black Sesame
- Peanut

It is Halal certified and are suitable for vegetarians. =)

6. Singapore Flyer Tickets exclusively for STUDENTS!
@ ONLY $10!

Available for all students who carry a Student Pass.
Here are some basic information:
- Each ride takes 30 minutes
- Flights are from 8.30am to 10.00pm
- Valid only on weekdays, excluding weekends and public holidays
- Valid till 31st December 2009
- Reservations can be made by phone or email

Please contact me for any more information that you may need. =)

These are all the deals I have, so do consider about it and get into the Mid-Autumn Festival mood! Get some for your friends and family! Just leave a message on the tag board, look for me on MSN or just text me @ 81271009! =D

If you want to order, do it quick! Best to order by Thursday, 17 Septemeber 09, 2200hrs! THANK YOU!

For me, I am SOOO getting the D24 Durian Snowskin from Goodwood PARK!!!! SOOO AWESOME!

It's official!

2009-08-19T21:44:00.008+08:00

Hello everybody!

It's official! I've been posted to Cheers. It's just the training week now, so I'm not too sure if I'm going to like it or not. As of now, I still really miss EMRS and would rather still be in that room organizing events. No matter what, I will try really hard to like Cheers. I'm still feeling apprehensive about it, mostly because I'm still not sure about all the operations. Guess we'll just need to survive the 1st 2 weeks and all should be fine. =)

EMRS was a very good experience and I really enjoyed it. It's was kinda sad to leave that room, my seat, the phone with the "are you there?" ring tone and the people!
Here are some of the memories:

Team 2 for the 1st 3 weeks

Team 2 for the rest of the 6 weeks.
Only a change in 1 person

Our 1st event: MSC mini road show
Doing mobile selling

"All Jazzed Up!" banner. Painstakingly done by Huimin and I and some who helped.

Teams 2 and 3, the organizing teams for the event.
Really miss them!

Overview of the entire event

My booth: Fila
Never hit sales target but still not bad

Demostration for M1 competition.

There still many more photos but I won't be uploading them.

Now for the last event. The national day road show "Food and Fashion Fever".

sports again, Nike, Adidas and Puma

With Yeeliang and Gina (OIC)
Everyone so red!

The rest are taken on the last day!

With Lily

With Huimin

With Haq, the joker

With Lionel(Lion) and Huimin

Ronald Chong's presentation.
He's just praising himself.

Few of us with James Sim

Lastly,
The entire EMRS team!

That's all! I'll really miss everyone!!!

I guess that our batch is quite bonded, and I'm sure the friendships formed will be treasured! =D

The end marks a new begining

2009-08-11T13:28:00.002+08:00

It's the last week in EMRS already! 9 weeks just ZOOMED by. I think I'm going to miss that place and the people! I think most of us will miss it, won't we?

It's the end of EMRS, the start of MSC. Hopefully, MSC will be as good as this.

We still do not know where we are posted to. We'll only find out on 17 Aug, but I really think that I have been posted to Cheers. Not sure if it's a good or bad thing. Good because there are things to do, unless the other stores where we can hit house files. Bad because... it's very busy and stressful? I don't know...

Will find out soon......

That's life

2009-07-22T22:53:00.000+08:00

Anyway, it's been kinda busy for me these 2 weeks, this week being the event week. OT most of the days.

My supervisor was like "don't think you guys work OT then you will get our attention as being hardworking. It only shows that you guys are inefficient"
I was like " As if we want to work OT"

And... my hokkien vocabulary is increasing because of EMRS. hahaha. I better not make it a habit.

This is the 6th week already, there is just 3 more weeks left. I find myself not counting down anymore, partly because it's been really busy and partly because I'm enjoying it there. With friends and laughter, what's there not to like? I admit, I was still a little comprehensive the 1st 2 weeks, but now, I like it. I'm glad i do! =)

GREAT DEALS!

2009-07-22T21:48:00.004+08:00

Hello everybody! I have some good deals for everyone!

Although it's for my personal selling, I really think that some of the things that I have been given to sell is good. It's all food, so anyone can buy it! The list is as follows:

1. "four seasons durians" $10 cash vouchers, selling @ $8 ONLY!
(the one selling durian pancake at AMK hub and Takashimaya)
You can check out their items at http://www.fourseasonsdurians.com
btw, it's hala certified.

2. Muffins from FoodEdge, ONLY @ $8.50! It comes in a box of 6. There are 6 different flavors.
- Bluebuerry
- Banana Walnut
- Orange Chocolate
- Cranberry
- Pure Chocolate
- Apple Raisin
- Assorted (1 of each of the above flavors)

3. Brownies from FoodEdge, ONLY @ 10.20. It comes in a box of 4 slices, 2 flavors.
- Walnut
- Triple Chocolate

4. Lindt Chocolates. Lindt cornet @ ONLY $9. It comes in 3 flavors.
- Milk
- Assorted
- 60% cocoa

5. Lindt Chocolates. Swiss Thins @ ONLY $8.40. It comes in 2 flavors.
- Milk
- Dark

6. Taiwanese snacks.
A selection of taiwanese snacks are being sold to. However, personally, I don't think it's as good as the above mentioned. =D

I suppose most of the people who read this blog know me, so if you want more information on the items, just nudge me, leave a offline message or just sms me. You can also use the tag board. I'll send you a copy of more details on the items.

Do give me some support! =D

Now that all the advertising is over....

I personally feel that the best thing mentioned above is the muffins! The apple raisin is damm good. I'm getting that for myself. The banana walnut too! Cuz I only managed to sample the muffins and being that I don't eat berries, I only tried the banana walnut, orange chocolate and apple raisin. Here's how i rank them:

1. Apple raisin!
2. Banana walnut
3. Orange chocolate.

I didn't try the pure chocolate one, cuz I can make them myself! LOL. =P

FREAKING BUSY

2009-07-19T00:02:00.001+08:00

BUSY BUSY BUSY!

What now?

2009-07-09T22:34:00.003+08:00

What is going to happen now?

Awkwardness.

That's the only word i can think of now, so much more is happening or going to happen. Nothing's ever gonna be the same again huh?

Life's like that I guess. Bringing the best and worst out of people. It does suck. It made me realized that it's not an issue of right or wrong, it's more of a consequence issue right now.

Just a random picture =D

Freaky

2009-07-08T23:52:00.003+08:00

I just read my daily horoscope on Facebook and it's so true to a certain extend that it become kinda freaky.

The day just ended and I read it. Whatever that was said, happened.

You may notice a major shift at some point during the day, when a focus on business gives way to something concerning a friend, Aries. Having just completed a financial transaction of some type that may have put some money in your pocket, you have time to contact someone for a get together today. If not a friend, it is likely to be an older sibling, but spending some time with someone whose company you enjoy is pretty much the highlight of your day.

Just that the financial transaction thing put money into my dad's pocket's instead of mine.
The Ezyhealth skating event is canceled due to the h1n1 and their concern of having many people (including foreigners) gathered at a place. They gave a full refund and I just received the cheque.

Maybe i should continue reading the horoscope. 2 more minutes till tomorrow. =D

Bored

2009-06-28T18:55:00.004+08:00

I feel that I lack activities. I feel that today is a wasted day. Or rather, I wasted my day away. However, I did managed to get some work done. So why am I feeling wasted? Hmm...
My brain cells are only used to think of what I should have for lunch and dinner. Very unused. I don't feel that I have been using my brain a lot although I have, for every millisecond that passed.

I know this is very random. But it just shows how bored I am. What a life. Still, boredom has got me thinking and wondering the unusual-ness of the facts of life, sadly. There is a very huge question mark in my head.

How can 2 people, strangers at first, become friends, good friends and then suddenly for no reason at all become strangers again? Something must have happened right? Like something big. Why else would there be such a difference. It kinda feels like you turned your back on everyone else, or was it just mine? I do understand that routines must be changed to suit the circumstances, but when no effort is put into fitting that routine back in our lives, it really beats me. I really enjoyed that company, that laughter, that fun. It just disappeared with a blink of an eye. Time is running out, I doubt it will ever return. I really hate to say this, but I feel that I lost something and I miss those times. I miss you, my friend.

What happened? I really don't know.
Could it be that being too close leads to separation?

Acting up again.

2009-06-17T22:43:00.002+08:00

My old problem is acting up again.

I'm a little scared, but not sure of what.

It's not as bad as before so I hope it goes away soon.

I'm determined to take control of it and not let it control me. If people can believe in you, why can't you just believe in yourself?

Hayley, remember how you had fun planning events and preparing for them? Remember that and your life will be easier. =D

Old life is back

2009-06-15T23:48:00.003+08:00

My old life is back. That 13-hour-in-school life is back.

I have officially started attachment at EMRS (event management and roadshow). It's a full shift thing, 9am-5.30pm EVERYDAY! Just like my dad. Actually I think my dad can leave the office at 5pm.

News about the first day? Not much...

1. People were confused as to when and where we had to report.
2. We all got split up into different teams
3. At least I know someone in my team. Will get to know the rest by the end of the 9 weeks.

I'm not sure to wish for the 9 weeks to fly pass or move as slowly as possible. Hopefully it will be the latter. Hopefully I will have a good time and find myself enjoying it most of the time rather than hating it. Please... oh please. =)

2009-06-07T14:07:00.004+08:00

I've no time to blog now because I'm busy being Emma Loh now. Sounds crazy eh? Taking on 2 identities. It's kinda fun actually. I can just make up any stories I like, of which mostly is based on a life that I would want. A more relaxing life, with more fun than work. Don't worry, I'm not going crazy and I do not dislike my life that badly enough to want to imagine all day long. It's just for a project/competition.

I did flag day yesterday for the SPCA with Gwen, and the heat was nuts! Lucky we chose 9am-1pm instead of 1pm-5pm. It's quite difficult to get donations now, maybe because of the recession. Or are Singaporeans just ungiving? I've met some really nice people, and some who just pisses me off. Some of them TOTALLY ignored me like I'm a ghost. Is it THAT difficult to say no? One auntie saw the tin and said "gou ye yao juan qian?!" and she gave the are-you-people-crazy? look. It's an association and yes, it need funds. Let's just say it's to make up for other's inconsideration and cruetly to animals. Are they not living things too?

2009-05-28T20:13:00.002+08:00

SCHOOL'S OUT!
and Roland Garros is in. what a perfect timing. I don't have to worry about getting up early in the morning for school which means i get to stay up late to watch all the matches! Paris is 6 hours behind us.

But i doubt the stress is completely out because of the Nestle Marketing Competition. Great, just great! Yes, i joined a competition and it's marketing... not sports. It WASN'T my idea! It's done, we're in, so get over it, Hayley. Just do your best for it and hope for the best. There are expectations to be met. Please DO NOT put your hopes up people, because I DO NOT have the kick to do it. But not to worry, I'll find it eventually. hopefully, not too late. Not complaining, just saying... =P

In the end, I choose to follow my guts instead of "fate". Don't think it paid off though, not that I'm expecting anything... or am i? *shrugs*

frustrated

2009-05-19T00:02:00.003+08:00

I hate to say this, which I always do. It's mid MAY 2009 already. How the hell did half a year just passed? I have no idea but it is kinda freaking me out.

Anyway, I'm currently in a pissed off mood now. No particular reason why, I think it's more of many reasons combined together. I can bite now, so watch it!

1. Projects
2. Myself for playing horrible tennis
3. Myself for getting pissed
4. My spelling, I don't know why I just can't spell today.

Just let me rant and throw a tantrum! I really need it now.

I better get off the laptop now or it may just become a victim of my frustration, something that I cannot afford to happen.

Hopefully everything will be fine when I wake up. =/

oh my!

2009-05-10T22:57:00.005+08:00

OH MY GWAD!

I just sorted out my timetable for the week and realized that I have 3 ICAs in a week! SO CRAZY!
*Remember, this is only my 3rd week in school.*

I'm like her... still slacking

lightning!

2009-05-03T14:38:00.003+08:00

2am this morning and it was madness! Thunder, lightning and rain thrashing like crazy! So loud that I woke up. Then I thought I heard a CLUNG[sound of porcelain breaking], thought I imagined it. Then just now, I found out that something did break. The roof tiles... I think the lightning struck it!

Shattered!

Orientation

2009-05-03T14:29:00.002+08:00

Finally! 09 tennis orientation is over! It did come out successful but i think there are still things that can be improved. Hell lots of problems arised during the planning but we still found a way around them. Well done to everyone who helped manage this even! Not so well done to the participants, some of you could have been more enthusiastic .

Now, just hope that they are people who can play to join the team! Good luck to all and to good trials next week!

I also recived email from Community Serivce Club[CSC] already. Orientation is on friday. Hope it goes well too! =D

obstacles

2009-04-30T23:05:00.002+08:00

I know that.

But to have so many popping up at the last minute? And you have to resolve within such a short time frame? It can drive anyone nuts!

It's bad enough not getting what you want on time.

I just hope that it can all go well on that day.

club crawl

2009-04-22T17:09:00.002+08:00

It's club crawl 09!
and I'm bored to tears at the tennis booth!!!
It's already 5pm!
Let me go!!!

I have resorted to playing games on Miniclip. Not a bad way to spend the time away.

SURPRISE!

2009-04-18T21:19:00.009+08:00

So... the girls had a surprise for Gwen and I on Thursday. JY called to say she was coming over to pass me some dvds she borrowed, and I was like "oh, okay.." Then after a while, Gwen called.

Gwen: Hayley, I bring my dog over to your house ok?
Me: Huh? You bring your dog over for what?
Gwen: I though I was supposed to come, the girls said to meet at your house.
Me:............................................. nobody is here. (we hang up)

Gwen: Nobody is picking up their phones, nvm la, I just come

In the end, we sat in front of the TV and ate Mac... with her dog barking like crazy.

Then the girls came and SURPRISE! with a cake and a photo album for each of us.

Here are the pictures..

Happy Birthday!

Amanda's page

Shu Rui's page

Gwen's page

JY's page (hard to get her photos, you know... =P)

Weishi's Page

Huiling's page

Gladys' page

Me! and my stupid candid photos. hahaha

I don't have the photos taken on that day, so whoever has it, be send to me!

Anyway, Thanks girls for you effort and time spent on the surprise and present! Love you all!

happy birthday! =D

2009-04-13T23:05:00.003+08:00

It's 13th April 2009! First of all, Happy 19th Birthday to myself! (crap, I'm getting older) haha.

Secondly, HUGE thank you for all the wishes and presents that I received! Really appreciate it!

Thirdly, here are the presents....

Cecelia Ahern's newest release, The Gift. The first book that I read from her was "PS, I love you" and it really gave me a very good impression of the author. I was like "her books can buy". So I guess this will probably be a good read! From my brother and his girlfriend. Thank you guys, although I don't think you will see this.

Adidas watch! Not exactly what I wanted but at least they noticed that I would have a glance at Adidas watches when I walked pass watch shops. haha. From my parents. But my dad said I could change it if I wanted to. So, I'll go to the shop and see if they have the one I REALLY REALLY want. That orange, square one... for those of you who knows...

On the whole, great day today! Spent with all the people I love!!!

Mochi

2009-04-12T22:07:00.002+08:00

Showtime!

Loves carrots!

For your information, the above 2 are the same hamster. It's Mochi! The hamster I adopted from SPCA. It's a female.

david archuleta

2009-04-07T22:34:00.004+08:00

Today is a good and bad day, a real mixture!

Had steamboat with Huiling and her Sis at her house. Haha! Quite a bit of food left. Now you know the feeling of having lots of left overs from steamboat and having to finish it up for the rest of the week! Lol.

Finally got some freaking news from school! But not officially for me. I have yet to receive a decent phone call from anyone! And definitely not from the people who I asked. That pisses me off. Anyways, everything is not confirmed yet till Monday I guess....

I was kinda ransacking her bookshelf just now and I saw the Harry Potter books. I'm finished reading all the way till deathly hallows but I did not read the 1st 2 installments. I didn't even knew they existed until the movie came out, so I was like why read it when I already watched the movie and know the plot. And as you Harry Potter fans know, they always cut a lot from the book. So, I'm gonna read it!

Next BIG thing....

I went to catch David Archuleta at Ilumma just now for the autograph session. Never thought I would do that huh? I've never been crazy about this kinda thing. But since I got his album and I have nothing to do, I was thinking.. Why not? There's always a first time! So here are some shots of him. It's not very clear cuz I used my handphone.

shaking hands with a fan

looking up at some fans who screamed at him from the upper levels

He's left-handed

I'm not that crazy over him. I mean, he just a normal person right... I think his work is tiring too. He signed for everybody who went there to get his autograph. The only thing is that they only allowed people with his album to get the autograph, which to me, makes perfect sense. If you didn't even bought his album to listen to his songs, where are you there? Anyways, a lot of people only bought it just now.

I have some complaints about the whole session too. I wouldn't die to go for one of the sessions again.

1. I hate the constant screaming of people, mostly girls, can you imagine the pitch and loudness of it all! It almost blew up eardrums! He walks out... SCREAMS! He talks... SCREAMS! He sings... SCREAMS! How the hell am I going to hear him properly if you keep freaking screaming!!!!

2. I hate the way people push and squeeze me. It made me so pissed of, I left the queue and went to the end of it, with no one pushing me at all! I don't want to be mean, but this guy with a big belly was behind me and pushing, he's belly kept poking into my back la!

3. I have nothing against David Archuleta and I guess his hand was already VERY tired after signing so many. He kinda drew on mine instead of signing, eh... making it not so nice anymore. :P

Another disgusting scene I saw...

Rubbish left behind!

There's still a lot more! Especially the plastic wrapper of the disc and tissues... Those people are just horrible!

Anyways, I still appreciate David Archuleta's effort for the performance and the autograph session! Cheers! =D

random

2009-04-04T23:30:00.002+08:00

Life here ain't so interesting anymore huh?

I'm getting bored, but this boredom isn't doing to last long. Before I know it, I'll be missing this kind of life! I have no idea when it will be and I'm getting frustrated about it.

I really have nothing else to add already.

Sometimes, having something/someone is a heaven-sent blessing that we failed to realize.

dicey business

2009-04-01T23:06:00.002+08:00

Watching Dicey Business now! I like CEO.

After watching it:
1. I want a rich boyfriend too! HAHAHAHAHAHA

2. I dislike baldies who smoke cigars and wear bow tie!

earth hour!

2009-03-28T22:21:00.004+08:00

I'm sure most of you have seen this somewhere wherever you were. So did you join in and switch off your lights? I hope you did, because I did. If I can do it, you can too!

I think this campaign is not bad, but is it widespread enough, do people know about it? I know they have it on Discovery channel and the internet, but where else? I also know that it's a global thing, because when I was in Hong Kong, they had the same campaign too. This is a good way of teaching people about the importance of conservation. I may sound like an environmentalist but I'm not. It doesn't mean that I don't have to give a shit about anything that has "conservation" or "environmentalist" stuck with it, at least I still care about the place we live in. Being "green" started quite a long time ago and we have already started the use of the "green" bags for our shopping. I can understand that people don't want to bring it to places like town and what about your groceries? "It's just in the neighbourhood! Maybe they should just cut the supply of plastic bags.

For the earth hour, I was thinking why not just cut the supply of electricity for 1 hour? Make it like a blackout, it's not like it hasn't happened before. I know, there are still many things to consider, like traffic lights, hospital. I just hope people learn...

This is the corridor in my house for now. It's a candle at the handrail of te stairs btw.

Don't you realise that the weather is changing. The monsoon came late this year. And the heat is getting freaking unbearable! Snow storms, earthquakes and more are happening. Maybe it's just mother nature trying to save herself! I just watch "The day the Earth stood still", maybe it will happen, aliens coming to help save earth. [I don't mind having an alien like Keanu Reeves though =D]

Choose between Earth and Global warming. Of course Earth lah! As if Singapore is not hot enough already.

So people, VOTE FOR EARTH!
If we don't take care of Earth, no one will.

places i went

2009-03-26T20:48:00.006+08:00

Now, for more photos from Hong Kong. I think this will be the last post on it. I'm left with the places that I went to. Considering that my photography skills are not that awesome, I can only post those that are better. So, here goes...

This is the street of Macau!
The Ruins of St. Paul's, one of Macau's attractions. Many tours groups were there too.

Interior of The Venetian. It's such a beautiful casino! Can you imagine? Everywhere is like that!

You can read for yourself. I kinda like that place although I didn't go into any of the pubs. I can't possibly go in and drink myself! I think I really prefer this to clubbing!

This is one of the street markets. Very narrow walkways, lots of bargains!

Looks like LA huh? Just that there Chinese words. This road sells antiques!

The escalator. It stretches a long long way. Consider to be a transport system.

Need I say more? I hope they come to Singapore!

They call this a ting ting. cable bus

I wonder what they are doing....

I think this statue is so funny. It's in the middle of their business district.

Mochi

2009-03-25T22:41:00.004+08:00

Guess what I did today!!

I just adopted a hamster from the SPCA! It's a little girl and I've decided to name her Mochi!

I got this picture from the SPCA website. This is just one of her friends that needs a really good home. I'll take a picture of my Mochi when I get her on Saturday.

It's been long since my two little babies passed on. It's time to get a new friend! Lol. I'll take good care of her! =D

wax museum

2009-03-24T22:09:00.011+08:00

After all the food photos i took, there is still so much more to share about Hong Kong. There isn't much scenery as it is still a city like us, but at least they still have hills and mountains, trekking trails, nice beaches and the countryside. I'm not very good with the camera so there are not many good shots. I share the shots I got slowly. For now, these are the ones i really want you guys to see now. =)

Isn't it a cutie? I saw it on the way up to the Big Buddha at Lantau Island. It was attracted to a red luggage someone was pulling and it just stuck to it.

Climbing up the two hundred and something flight of stairs. By right, you could already see the Buddha but it was so misty. Visibility- less than 50m.

You can hardly see anything behind me. There are supposed to be lots of trees, I think.

Can you see the Buddha's figure?

At the tram station to go up to Victoria Peak

Here comes the tram!!!

I saw soooo many celebrities up there!!!

Jay Chou! My buddy! Adeline, jealous anot? Lol

Michelle Yeoh and I

Kelly Chen is getting married! I'm her bridesmaid..

That famous korean actor in winter sonata! All the "housewives" are gonna be jealous! hahaha

I'm the president! Gosh... it's nervous giving a speech up there.

Adolf Hitler. You like him? I definitely do not!

Gandhi!!! Someone's gotta help the old man.
Mr Lee Kuan Yew! Hello Sir. I have to stand properly next to him.

Albert Einstein!!! Just helping him to ensure that the class understands this equation.

Andy Lau!!!!!!!!!!! I can't believe my dad screwed this shot up lah!

Johnny Depp!!! See, I didn't lie when I said I saw Johnny Depp and he let me hug him.

Jackie Chan in action with me! Is the pose good? haha

007! I'm gonna catch the bad guys with him! His sidekick.

The Beatles! Too bad I'm not talented in music.

Elvis! Isn't that his favourite dance move?

Twins! Gosh, they are kinda short right?

View from the top! Quite Foggy still.

That's the peak tower!

That's all for now. There are still lots more to share, but I'll do it in the next post! It's kinda nice travelling alone. You can do whatever you want at whatever time you like, you won't be restain by the needs of others. Then again, I think I would prefer if I had a partner along. At least you can get an opinion if you need it, like when you go shopping or when you eat. The eating part is a bit difficult before you can expect me to be dinning at a restaurant for every meal. When I go to foodcourt or fast food place to grab a bite, I always worry that I won't find a seat after I get my food! What will I do then? hahaha. Another thing about HK, if you don't like to share seats with other people when you eat, go to a restaurant. Not a cafe, a proper restaurant. People share seats all the time! I don't mind that at all!

photos!

2009-03-23T15:51:00.012+08:00

I've uploaded all the photos and I'll start posting them up. There are really too many so I won't post all now. Maybe I'll put them on facebook or something.

The best way to start off in a country, is to have a taste of culture and food. That, I did. For this entry, I'll talk more on the food.

Smelly tofu! I never thought I would ever give it try and I did. The smell isn't very welcoming but it was not THAT bad, just that the after taste lingers on... So, I don't think I'll crave for it.

This is their normal breakfast set meal. It's quite a lot for 1 person to finish! For some reason, a lot of them eats macaroni.

This is dessert, but not the really traditional kind. It's red bean with grass jelly put in a bowl of dry ice .

This is Hong Kong's famous egg pudding. They have the egg white and egg yolk ones. It's obvious which is which, with a cup of ice milk tea. Yummy! I personally prefer the white one.

These two are Japanese dessert that my mum and I had below our apartment. Not bad at all! I think that green tea ice cream and red bean really complement each other well. They are a perfect match in heaven and earth!

This dessert is from a Vietnamese restaurant. It's unique. At first I thought I ordered just a coconut. It is a coconut. It's what's inside that matters, look carefully and you'll realize that it's jelly! It's like coconut agar agar, with nata de coco inside. I think they put gelatine powder into the coconut juice. Yummy!

This bowl of noodles is really special. They should have it in Singapore. Here's how it works. You go into the cafe, look at a list of ingredients and tell the person what you would like to have added into the noodles. Ingredients have different prices and it's denoted by colour. My bowl has chicken wings, beancurd skin and sharkball. Yes, you saw it right. Sharkball, not fishball, that's the one on the spoon. It's like the fuzhou fishball, with meat inside. Yummy!!

Nothing special about this, it's just coke. It's been a long time since I drank coke from this bottle. It's like ancient!

This is porridge and ngau nam tong [cow ligament soup]. To me, the porridge is just soup poured onto the rice. haha. But it's good! The cow soup too. Just that it's a bit fatty and I would advise not to eat that so often, not healthy! But like people say, food that's good is more often than never bad for you. Still, it's yummy!
See that cup of tea on the table. Every cafe [char chan teng] will provide a cup of tea. I usually don't touch it. Reason being, I don't really know what i should do with it. I see some drinking it and some washing their utensils in it. So, drink or no dirnk?

This is salted fish with minced meat claypot rice! Freshly made, it's not been prepared beforehand. The rice is cooked in the claypot itself and not a rice cooker. You have to wait for at least 15mins for it to be done. Yummy!

That's dinner for my mum and I. The food is bought from the supermarket below the apartment. Obviously I packed it up to the apartment to eat. In Hong Kong, all their large supermakets have this! Cooked food ready for you to eat on the spot. They have a variety of food. Chinese, Japanese, Western, Italian... Don't look down on them. If you choose the right foods, Yummy!! Look at the amount of rice they give, like it's free.

This is Mister Soffle! Ice cream van!!! No money, never mind. You can pay by Octopus Card, an eqivalent to your ez-link.

This is just some fried dough stick[yau char kuek] and bee hoon that you eat with congee. The really cantonese kind that is thick, sticky and boiled for a long time till you can't see the rice grain. No picture of it because it looked like a bowl of white liqud. haha. Yummy!

This is from New York Fries. Bringing fries up a notch! Cheesy fries with much more. They have 3 kinds.
1. Beef gravy
2. Veggie [sour cream, green onion, tomatoes.]
3. I can't remember but I know there's chilli.
The one I had was veggie. Green onion, YUCKS! my mum cleared it for me. I'm like the only one in the family that dislikes it. What's so nice about green onion?

That's all the food I have! Some has already been eaten when I took a shot. I can't resist but the tuck in when i get the food and by the time I remember to take a shot, some or the whole thing is gone. Wondering why there's not much photos... I always forgot to take. Hehe.

This is a peeler! Cute huh? I shall call it Mr. Potato!

I think talking about food is fun! From now on, I'll take a snap of whatever yummy comes my way! Maybe, this may become a food or travelling blog! Lol... Till then...

back in sg

2009-03-23T11:00:00.002+08:00

Hello again! I know I said I would update but every time I go into blogger, I just don't feel like updating. Maybe it's because there are so many things for me to absorb and i can't organize all those thoughts! You know, the brain works much faster than the hands.

Anyway, 1st time flying on my own and I'm safely back in SG! No, I didn't get lost. I have not uploaded the photos yet, will do so later on. So many things to do now that I'm back!

1. Renew my passport
2. Give out presents, meet up with friends
3. Prepare for birthday celebrations
4. Go back for training

That's all for now! =D

Hong Kong

2009-03-07T22:33:00.002+08:00

Hello everybody! I'm in Hong Kong already! I wanted to blog as much as I can while I'm here but i FORGOT to bring the camera cable to transfer the pictures into the computer! Arghh.... No pictures = not colourful entry [although most of my posts do not have pictures, I'm trying already] I can only use the internet at the table and not on the bed, so it's kinda difficult to be online like normal.

I guess I'm quite familiar with the MTR system here. It's their version of S'pore's MRT, very similar, just bigger, maybe MUCH bigger. So, hopfully when I go roaming around alone in the next 2 weeks, I will be able to find my way back to the apartment as long as I find a MTR station.

I went to the recommended sports warehouse, Marathan Sports. The things there are generally cheaper but it not as big as what a "warehouse" is supposed to be. It's just like an ordinary store. In fact, quite small. Saw this tennis shoe, quite cheap, liked it, wanted it. BUT, no size. Female Hong Konger's feet are small... Asians. Like I'm not one! Ok, MY FEET ARE JUST TOO BIG LA. What can I do? It's not like you can slim down your feet. There's raely any meat there anyway, just bones. =(

Anyway, I'll upload the pictures as soon as I get back to S'pore.

If you are tuning in on these, continue to. =D

license!

2009-03-03T18:52:00.003+08:00

Today, I got my driving license! My long awaited license!

I was sooo nervous this morning and I'm glad it's over already. Thanks to the instructors who were patient, impatient, encouraging, stressful, talkative, friendly, crapy and whatever other terms. I do not need to see you guys again! haha.

Anyway, my Hong Kong trip is confirmed and it's from the 6th to 22nd March, which is this Friday. I have yet to plan the litenary properly but I hope i can do it by Friday, or not I'll just go there and search the web since I'm bringing my laptop too. It really feels like Travel and Living! And I'll be checking my results there too! Hope it will be good!

Amanda's Birthday last Friday was fun! The suprise worked but the schedule was WAY off. Walked ALL the way from Taka to bugis junction, just to get to a TCC with seats. Can't believe we actually did that.

Having a mini BBQ with the NYP girls tmr. It's not really well planned, so I hope it works. *Don't worry la, at most go eat at Causeway Point only!* =D

van

2009-02-28T22:48:00.002+08:00

I saw this: "Don't let the pests pester you" on a pest control van.

I mean...
They wouldn't be called pests if they didn't pester you right?

rainbow!

2009-02-26T14:43:00.005+08:00

The weather has been quite repetitive this week. Scorching hot sun from morning till around 2pm and then the dark clouds starts coming in. The next moment you know it, it POURS as though someone up there took laxatives after having constipation for 1 month. It just pours the shit out. Then again, it isn't THAT bad, because you get to enjoy some wonderful views like below:

1st place where i spoted it. I went like "that's freaking nice!" outloud. Then, i check behind to see if anyone was there. Lucky, there was only a uncle quite far away, didn't think he heard.

Continued walking home and took a snap again. This time, just outside the house.

And this, is from outside my window.

It's been a long while since I saw a rainbow. This one kinda stretched over the whole sky and it was quite bright. That's about it.

It's pouring hard right now. Supposed to go watch Marley & Me at 4pm with Huiling, but we moved it to 7pm. Hopefully the rain stops fully or at least become a drizzle by 5pm... Marley is cute!!!

exams over!

2009-02-25T10:47:00.002+08:00

EXAMS ARE OVER!!!

When I'm still quite stressed out. I still have my driving test to think about. I really hope to clear it on my first attempt but I'm really not sure if I'll be able to do it. But I cannot think this way or I would have lost half the battle. So, I need to psycho myself that i can do it!

Anyway, for more relaxing thoughts... I'm going to Hong Kong this March! Not sure how long I'll stay there though. I'm so gonna plan my trip properly and explore as much as I can. So cool to travel alone! =D

little break

2009-02-19T23:04:00.003+08:00

The week is coming to an end and I've completed 75% of the race that lasted for about 4 months. There's only 25% more which will e completed by Monday and it will all be over! So, i can afford a little break for myself.

The 3 papers were alright and thank goodness the KILLER paper didn't kill me. It just caused me injuries. Passing is not a problem, I hope because I will not be in Singapore during the supplementary papers. =D I'm going to Hong Kong to find my Mum! Can't wait to go shop along the street and eat all the street food. It's been a long time since I've been there so I'm so gonna enjoy myself. Thinking of it is already making me drool. However, I won't be able to spend the whole month there like I thought cuz Mum's going to New York. I hope I can psycho her to bring me along too! LOL. That would be FAN-TAS-TIC!

Nothing much to talk about. I spent the whole week studying and eating quite a lot too. Thinking about the week, I realized that I'm thinking about someone. [not really a someone] and I think I just might be falling in love. And that is SMOKEY a.k.a boy-boy a.k.a bobby, whichever suits him better on the day itself. I'm falling for a doggy!!! Can't help it, he seems so much cuter yesterday when I saw him. =DD

I don't have the picture so I kinda "stole it". haha. hope the owner don't mind. =)

exams

2009-02-16T10:32:00.003+08:00

Saturday night was fun! Had bbq with some of the girls at Yishun Dam. I didn't even know there's a dam in Singapore until that day. So, we brought our own small bbq pit and just started eating! We don't have to go all the way to pasir ris or east coast, it's not a bad place and it's near. The only shortcoming is that it's difficult to get there without a car. So, time to get that licsence!

Study week is over! Here comes the exams. Surprisingly, I'm still watching TV! Here the exam schedule:

16 Feb: Microeconomics @ 4pm
18 Feb: Statistics @ 12.30pm
19 Feb: Principles of Management @ 4pm (the killer paper)
23 Feb: Accounting @ 12.30pm

23 Feb, 2.30pm onwards: burn my notes and go crazy! Time to have fun! =D I can't wait!!! It will be over soon.

So, Exams? Whatever...

true fear

2009-02-15T00:33:00.001+08:00

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Losing Someone You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either!
Being Alone
Where Your life is Going
Disappointment
Looked down on
Commitment
Death
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Hmm, I guess it's rather true...

long long

2009-02-14T02:55:00.003+08:00

Despite the time, I have the urge to blog now with a pretty long entry.[just let me rant] Reason being: I had a mind-blowing discussion/realization today! I'm still thinking about it and I just can't understand!!!

I don't think it's a good idea to blog this openly as it might offend some people and the last thing I want is my blog to become a topic of controversies. It has something to do with sexuality. You know, the hormo-sexual, bi-sexual, trans-sexual stuff. It's sensitive to some people and I just want to make known that whatever written here is just my personal opinions and nothing else. I agree that the different kinds of sexuality are slowly becoming accepted by society. But somehow, I can't really get the grasp of it yet, much less accept it. So, forgive me for my not so accepting ways. I'm just confused about what the world has become to! Sex in the primitive times is considered sacred i guess, but now, it only remains so to some people. For me, it's not just a physical thing, it's emotional too and should only be done with the one you love. In this world now, you should now how it's like. I don't even have to spell it out! This leaves me pretty confused about how it a simple thing like sex has evolved to many forms and became so complicated.

Anyways, my problem is with the boy-boy, girl-girl kind of stuff. I have nothing against this kind of relationships. The thing is I don't understand how they do things which a boy-girl does. It's just not normal in my context and I'm kind of apprehensive about it! The only way to make me understand is to let me into their heads. In the case that I've heard about, it seems that things turn out the way it is now because of curiosity. It made me realize that curiosity does kill the cat! I'm just curious so please do not get offended! I apologize in advance.

Leaving all the confusing stuff aside, I've been working real hard in preparation for the coming exams which starts on Monday. Till now, I still don't have the exam mood. I just want to get it over and done with and it will be over very fast! And I'll be out of Singapore for a while I guess, not sure yet.

It's Febuaray 14th now. The all-so-famous Valentine's Day. Please enjoy it with your loved ones. Not to say that you should only do it this day, you should do it everyday! Cherish the people around you! I hope I have done so so far.

Jason Mraz is having a concert in Singapore! But i couldn't get my hands onthe tickets, it was all sold out already. *Poof* just like that. GONE! I was like DEVASTATED.

Would someone send me a Valentine's Day gift with the Jason Mraz's concert tickets??? =D

can't think!

2009-02-10T21:41:00.002+08:00

AHH!! I feel so brain dead now. I suddenly can't do my stats and absolutely nothing else! It kinda worries me a bit but i guess it's enough for today. I can't even spell properly!

I'm hungry too but there doesn't seem to e anything to eat at home. =(

It's the study break now and EXAMS starts in a week's time. It feels like i just took exams not long ago and I'm doing it again. Time just flew by again. It's already February 2009! I should cherish my time actually. But like all people, I might just take it for granted, not do anything and regret it when i lose it eh? Hmm, whatever, not the time to think about issues... FOCUS on the EXAMS!

Should I stay for a month or just 2 weeks?

feeling down

2009-02-01T21:45:00.002+08:00

2 reasons why I'm feeling down now.

1. Roger Federer just lost to Rafa Nadal in the Australian Open Finals and he cried in front of millions of people. Poor Federer, he was quite close to getting that 14th title. Although I hate to say this, but I have to. Nadal is good, only he can get those supposed-to-be-winners back into play. He's a freak, a running machine, whatever you may call it. So, don't cry Federer... you can get that 14th title and I'll still be supporting you although it's a bit tiring.

2. I have to go to school tomorrow. It's not that i hate school, it's just that there's POM tutorial, oral comm presentation and then sharepoint. It totally sucks. Oral comm will be done so I'm ok, but sharepoint. I really can't be bothered about it. This could just be my first time being a free-rider, I really just want to ride off my groups mates. People have been riding off me, so why can't i just ride off once? Desperate times calls for desprate measures.

say say

2009-01-29T00:11:00.003+08:00

So many things to say, but none can come out.

busy busy

2009-01-20T23:07:00.003+08:00

2009 started off busy but I'm still optimistic about it! I just have a good feeling about the year ahead. Please let me be right! :)

I had 4 projects on hand and that's why i do not have the time to blog at all. Now, with 2 down, I only left with 2 more to go, and then exams, and then SEMESTER break!!! CNY is coming too! The Australian Open has also started!

I've also booked my driving test on 3rd March! Please let me get my license too! I promised I'll be a courteous and responsible driver. :D

This is a happy post as the unhappy things are over and I shall not think or review about it. Let bygones be bygones!

2009!

2009-01-01T00:07:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR to everybody! I hope 2009 will be a good or better year for everyone!

I forgot to blog on the 31st so I'll do it now.

2008 has been both a good and bad year for me. As of now, it is bad but i still remember the good times that i enjoyed. I made new many new friends and grown close to some of them. I glad i got to meet these people who fill up my life with whatever they have or do to me. Cheers to those people! and hope that they won't leave their footprints and walk away soon. Love them all! Other good things includes me staying on with my course. I also had quite a great experience working at the F1. There are still stuff to hate of it but I'm staying on still.

However, i have also met people are just a jinx to me. I might be prejudiced against them, but it did not come without any substantial evidence. I won't go on into details because i would much rather forget about it and be happier that way then to go on grumbling about it. Hope these people will go away soon or just leave me alone. Plus, i hope my luck will change for the better.

I'm sure there are still many more things. I not in the recalling mood now so I'll add on when the moods comes. Many thoughts to bring forward to 2009 from 2008, things i have not figured out yet, i hope i do so soon.

A lot of people have new year resolutions and they have a habit of doing it every year. A lot of them also don't keep to it and make the same resolutions every year. I don't have the habit of doing so so, I'll try for 2009.

1. Find back myself and do what i do best.
2. Start getting part-time jobs during the holidays
3. Train hard for tennis and start trashing people instead of getting trashed
4. Wish for good health to everybody
5. Go clubbing with my friends for once. Lol.
6. Be brave

Ok, that's all i can think of right now! I will work towards it. =)

screw up

2008-12-29T14:21:00.001+08:00

Oh no. I screwed up the template and i don't know how to make it back.

holidays

2008-12-29T00:13:00.003+08:00

The holidays came and went away. I'm into the last few hours of it and it's back to school, back to work again. Not looking forward to it but also not absolutely dreading it. The thought of having many things to do isn't very pleasant. But I've completed 3/4 of the school year already, and halfway through the 2nd semester. So I'm left with a bit more to go. I'll make it... sure I will. All i have to do now is to keep myself from falling, keep the motivation going and make an achievement; for i know that the sweetness of success is the greatest feeling and i long for it to re-appear again.

Christmas is over too. There are only 2 days left of 2008. Time to think back and recall all the happenings, both good and bad. I'll do that on the 31st. I really hope 2009 will be a better year for me and the people around me. =)

Please allow tomorrow to be a good start for the last 1/4 of my race for.

The finishing line is already is my sight.

late nights

2008-12-12T01:54:00.004+08:00

Late nights again! Up till 2am this week! At this rate that i'm going, i'm bound to fall sick soon. But the holidays are coming, so hopefully i won't.

There project submission tmr and i'm glad that it's ALL done. There's only printing left to do in the morning.. or rather, later...

Oral Communication's speech is later too. At 10am. Hopefully i can deliver tomorrow, not much buffer time for me.

It's the last day of school tmr! Been waiting for it and it came fast. It's already half the semester, one that sucks too. I've been "bombed" a few times already.

Recently, i got "bombed" again. Maybe i do owe that person an explanation so i'll do it tomorrow, hopefully not causing much of a fuss. Then again, i don't have that liability to handle all these crappy stuff. You asked me to understand how you feel. Why not try understanding how I feel?

I AM NOT A BABY-SITTER! SO GET THOSE "BABIES" AWAY BEFORE I START BITTING!

spongbob squarepants

2008-12-05T20:26:00.002+08:00

I just did a test. It about which cartoon character my personality is closely related to. And the results:

I'm Spongbob Squarepants. Like WTH... He's so lame.

This is the description:

You are the classic person that everyone loves. You are the best friend that anyone could ever have and never wants to lose. You never cause harm to anyone and they would never not understand your feelings. Life is a journey, it's funny and calm for the most part. Stay away from traitors and jealous people and you will be stress free.

The sentence in red is so very true for now. LOL

lazy

2008-12-04T23:17:00.004+08:00

I realise that I'm getting lazier by the day. I just don't feel like doing any work at all! It's like, I shouldn't even be blogging right now! sheesh~~~

i wish i could be like this doggy....

Is this just a case of laziness or am i just tired? Tired of all the crap...

I feel that my life now is crapy, although it is totally un-crapy when compared with some others.

wth

2008-12-01T00:50:00.002+08:00

I can't believe this! I have a test tmr morning and i DO NOT feel like studying for it. I just wanna sleep and slack! i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it ....

Life still goes on. It won't stop and wait for me.

stop it

2008-11-28T23:33:00.000+08:00

Stop playing me around already... Please... I think that's quite enough already.

awarded

2008-11-27T07:10:00.002+08:00

I should be awarded the most tolerent award of the year.

I really should be blowing up right now but i am not. I guess I'm too tired to even blow up.

I shouldn't even be up at this time although i know it's not very early/late. I really can't be bother already.

I just don't understand what's going on on people's mind.

School is no longer a place I'll be looking forward to.

bad bad bad

2008-11-25T22:03:00.002+08:00

Had a bad bad day.
Everything is so f*ucking screwed.
Everything is not fine at all.

So, DO NOT tell me that everything's gonna be fine.

november

2008-11-16T21:49:00.005+08:00

What can i do? What i can say?

Let bygones be bygones...

I don't really care what you do to me, I don't care what you do to yourself and I don't care how freaking screwed up your life is. I DON'T CARE! Just do me a favour. Buzz the freaking hell out of my life. Just BUZZ off.

Okay... This is the time of the year where many people will say what I'm gonna say next. So, here goes.

1. It's a already halfway through Novembe 2008. 2009 is coming.

2. Week 6 of school is coming already. 1/3 of the semester is gone.

My point here>>> Time files. And it is not fun at all. Not at all.

Although some things will never change, many things are already changing as the years, months and days pass.

I have a bad case of Mondays' Blues. I LOVEEEE the weekends... Dislike the weekdays. [hate would be too strong] To be specific, I dislike projects but i'm perfectly fine with doing my tutorials, revising, taking tests and exams.

For example, I've already finished all my tutorials for the week and revised everything that has been taught, but I have not touched on my project report yet. The thing is, it really depends who you are doing the project with. [I'm not attacking anyone personally, it's just a general thing.] :(

I've come up with a motto for myself.

BEILEVE IN YOURSELF. YOU CAN DO IT!

That's the only thing that keeps me going.

Booboo

2008-11-08T00:02:00.003+08:00

Whoever you are, 我是不会让你得逞的！ mark my words, you Booboo!

This goes to scary human behaviour. Don't these things only happen in dramas?

But then again, if it can happen in dramas, and scriptwriters can think of it, it just goes to show that it is VERY REAL.

So, Hayley... Please do not be fooled by anyone who wears a mask.

semester 2

2008-10-23T20:28:00.004+08:00

So far, semester 2 hasn't really been the best for me. Something is just FREAKING wrong man. Why?

1. the modules doesn't seem to be as easy. (maybe it's just too early to tell cuz i'm not back into the studying mode yet. i hope it's like that)

2. the project grouping are just so random. all the projects all different groups! so difficult to coordinate! so messy! (i can't even remember who i have in which group)

3. timetable is a bit difficult to coordinate with training. arghh...

4. I have a SUPER boring tutor that makes the whole class sleep.

5. I have lecturer whose favourtie word is "therefore"

So, i have to tell myself: I will and i can handle it all!

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Phrase of the week: JUST BE THERE! =D

From the show FRIENDS,

I'll be there for you ... when the rain starts to fall.

I'll be there for you ... like I've been there before.

I'll be there for you ... cause you're there for me, too.

random

2008-10-18T20:14:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, i feel that i would much rather be around a bunch of animals like cats and dogs than with a bunch of humans... my species.
I really want a dog, even if it means adopting from SPCA and going through the whole adoption process.

Anyway, I've not been a big fan of Japanese anime. the only ones which I've watched when i was younger was Pokemon and Samuria X. Now, i found one that's nice and i'm glued to my laptop!!

It's Yakitate!! Japan! Translated as Freshly baked! Japan. LOL. okay, it's about baking...

Quite funny, although VERY lame at times.

Another thing, O levels start next week! Good luck to all who have spent almost the whole year preparing. I've been there too, so you guys can do it!

Jia You! It will all be over very soon and you will be looking back like what i'm doing now. Kinda miss those days. :)

back to school

2008-10-14T21:17:00.002+08:00

It's back to school again...

Good news: I'm successfully into the 2nd semester of my course. Doesn't seem like a big deal eh? But it is quite a deal for me. Heh.. And it reminds me that it's been a year already. So fast...

Bad news: I already dislike a tutor already and it's only the 2nd day.

Anyway, that's it i guess

tough task

2008-10-02T13:25:00.001+08:00

Hmm, sometimes i wonder...
Is admitting really such a difficult task?

Well, it depends on the circumstances, doesn't it?
I guess so...

back home

2008-09-27T22:02:00.002+08:00

I'm back from China!
Hmm, home sweet home i guess.

Before i left i thought I lost the F1 job but then i got it back! Thanks to my brother.
This is so cool, i get to go into the area anytime i want with my staff pass. LOL. Although I'm not interested in cars and racing, but it's still cool to get to hear the loud engine noises and just feel the vibe there. I bet the atmosphere is gonna be really good tomorrow!

Hope I didn't miss out much in the 1 week that i was away... =D

Will update more about the trip when i get the photos uploaded!

4-D

2008-09-17T20:09:00.002+08:00

4-D draw out!

My number was 2435. I bought i-bet which means the number does not have to be in sequence.

A number that came out was 2234! so close eh.... if only it had been 2534! :(

Currently, I'm watching America's got talent. This old man singing fly me to the moon! Good eh..

crazy day

2008-09-17T18:51:00.002+08:00

It was a crazy day yesterday. met Huiling for lunch and pool at Hougang. This isn't crazy yet...
The crazy part started when she decided that we take a walk to Kovan instead of taking train or bus. Walking sounds simple enough. But you have to take into consideration the weather! It was hot hot hot. But of course it's not as bad as playing tennis in that kind of weather. Sometimes, I also can't understand how i can do that. Then, for some reason, we were thinking about buying 4-D, and because it was results day, i had the 4 numbers i needed. Lol. And then, while walking, we saw a singapore pools. Call it fate...

Results out later at 8pm... Pray Pray Pray... :D

Dinner time!

results revealed

2008-09-16T10:02:00.002+08:00

Got the results. Not bad. I guess i didn't end up like that guy in the picture i posted earlier.

It's kinda unexpected though. The paper i was most confident for got the lowest grade and the module that i was feeling shaky in... Got the highest. But whatever, I'm satisfied with it. This will do, but I'll try harder next semester.

Hayley, please attend all your lessons, please attend all your lessons.... Do all your work, do all your work. But then again, it's really easier said then done. I'll try... I'll try...

results!

2008-09-15T23:34:00.002+08:00

Results are coming out soon. In about 20mins. I don't exactly know how or what to feel now.

I just hope i won't end up like this guy below.

Please Please Please let it be good news.

SPCA cuties

2008-09-12T16:08:00.004+08:00

While at the SPCA, i snapped a few shots off my phone.

Take a look...

2 little ones

up close to the one nearer to me. look at that little face.

this cat was playing with another cat's tail which was dangling outside. In fact, i was playing with it as well! Lol

The reason why i volunteer there is because of all these little fellows. Although i really don't understand why they are there, but part of me is glad cause i get to play with them. That's for not being able to have a dog in the house. Well, part of the reason I'm there is also to use up my free time la. Although I'm not getting paid, but that's fine. I mean, aren't they just adorable?

e-mails!

2008-09-10T11:25:00.005+08:00

I was just checking my mail this morning and i saw a few interesting ones. This one was forward to me by a friend and has "how people change" in its subject line.
Have a look.

Since it's too small. I'll copy down the text.

There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she was blind. she hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. he was always there for her. she said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend.

one day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she could see everything, including her boyfriend. her boyfriend asked her, "now that you can see the world, will you marry me?" the girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend was blind too, and refused to marry him.

her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying,"JUST TAKE CARE OF MY EYES PLEASE."

this is how humans change when their status changes. only few remember what life was before, and who has always been there in the most painful situations.

Damm, i hate this kind of situation. But i fully agree with the last statement. Status changes the person. This is just one of the many examples. I believe there are many more other situations in this world. How do i know then? Maybe because of the TV dramas that i have watched. But where do the script writers come up with these characters if they do not exist?

Anyway, i just feel that we should always be grateful to the people who are always there for us in times of need. Be it just a hug, a listening ear, a helping hand or someone pulling us out the whatever shit we get ourselves into. These people were there when we needed someone to be there. So don't disappoint them when they need us.

Although i believe that these people don't mind not getting back anything but they are also humans, needing someone to hold onto. So the least we can do, is to be there in whatever way. GIVE AND TAKE, that's how it works! =D

So, when our status change as we move on in life, REMEMBER those who were there for you.
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Another mail i saw was from APPLE.
Take a look...

Alright, there i go...

OMG! the colours are so nice! i want! i want! the orange, the blue, the green! Why didn't i wait for these nano to come out?!?!?

Okay, calm down. I really gotta run already. Lunch!

finally

2008-09-05T14:47:00.003+08:00

Finally, i did something about my blog. Realized any differences? Not much actually, just that the fonts are bigger, changed the music, edited some links. Doesn't sound much, but i spent quite some time in doing it. Why? because i wanted to change the whole thing but didn't know how to. I found the template i wanted but had NO idea how to change the html codes.

Anyways, it's been 2 weeks since exams ended. Yes, i have been slacking, sleeping in late and not doing much. The weather isn't doing me any good too, it's so dampening my mood. For the past 2 weeks, it rained everyday. As in, not the whole day, but at least once a day. There are also some others things that i have been doing/ going to do:

1. Driving [on the road already and really getting the hang of the pedals]
2. Met up with the girls for dinner
3. Went back for gym [been so long, but at least i still had some moves in me. haha]
4. Got a job for the upcoming F1 event [I think and i hope so]
5. Going back to help out at SPCA [speaking of SPCA, i have a story to tell]
6. STA junior tournament [eh, let's not talk about that]

That's about it.

I want to meet up with some people so badly! So So long since we last met [at least, it seemed like a long time to me]

Alright, now for the story i mentioned above:
On Tuesday, while we were preparing lunch, this huge female German Sherperd just came trotting into my house. It was really dirty, smelly and just not groomed. To me, it seemed like it got lost for a few days already and i guess it came into the house because of the food smell. It just lay on the floor like it was her home, if you didn't know, you would think that she was our dog. Didn't wanna get too close to her so we just fed her with some sausages and rice. Obviously, after some food, i guess she refused to leave so we had to call SPCA to pick her up.

What a way to start off the week.

So, do i feel bored staying at home? No, i don't think so. Lol.
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I was there for you, you were there for me. That's just how it works! =D

2008-08-22T23:35:00.000+08:00

EVERYTHING IS OVER!!!

IT'S PARTY TIME!

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D

hear that?

2008-08-20T21:44:00.002+08:00

PHEWWWWW!!!!!!

hear that???

That's what you call a sigh of relief.

It's definitely a huge sigh of relief for me. POM exam is finally over and THANK GOODNESS it wasn't as bad as we thought it would be. I'm actually more worried about Econs than that. But to hell with that, I'll enjoy myself and not bother about the results for now. Actually I'm already enjoying myself now even though I have another paper tomorrow. It will be the last and then it's party time!

I have been sitting in front of the TV the whole day and I think my butt is rotting soon. Olympics is coming to an end soon. There's still basketball, volleyball and track and field [these are the few that i watch]. After watching the match of Italy and Poland, I thought it was exciting! Sometimes the ball just goes on and on and you just don't know when it will drop!

Okok, back to POA...

OMG!

2008-08-18T21:43:00.004+08:00

I'm in this state at the moment.

I'm on the verge of do that right now. [look below for picture reference]

2 more

2008-08-18T14:27:00.001+08:00

2 down. 2 more to go. :D
But it's POMMM................... just let me pass, just let me pass...

POM

2008-08-17T16:12:00.002+08:00

2 words.

fuck POM.

i told u so

2008-08-16T19:31:00.002+08:00

see, it's already Saturday night! So fast! Next Saturday will come soon too, which means EXAMS are OVER! Can't wait, can't wait, can't wait.

Anyway, it wasn't the best starting off the exams on Friday. I can't explain why, but it just feels weird. Hope the next few will be good. I'm been talking about exams lately, kinda forgot to mention about the BEIJING OYLMIPCS 2008! It's kinda stupid actually, i missed out a lot a lot partly because i had to study and a whole lot because i didn't know that Starhub cable had like 5 free channels just for Oylmpics! Just found out today! I meant stupid, as in me, not the Oylmpics. It's great man! I like the commerical on channel 5 on the Oylmpics. The one with the old man talking about the greatness of man blah blah blah... Good thing for cable TV, or I won't be able to catch tennis. Watching Blake VS Djokovic now, bronze medal match. Hope Djokovic gets it! He's leading a lot, so i hope it's a SURE win! GO DJOKOVIC! TIE-BREAK! I hate it, it's so stressful. Damm nervous one leh, both watching it and playing it.

Oh, there's the national day rally later too. I think i might just catch it.

Time to change my blogskin too, i find that the words are too small. i know i can resize it, but i don't know how. Not a computer person. =D

macroeconomics

2008-08-14T22:50:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is my 1st paper. Macroeconomics. That's in less than 12 hours. The hated Econs don't seem so hateful anymore. I'm also there already, almost done with memorizing, and of course understanding all the stuff. Hopefully all will go well tomorrow. This round of exams feel so different. It's not even a national exam but it feels like it's really really important.

All i can tell myself now that it's all gonna be over soon. In a blink of an eye again, I'll be back on my laptop with 1 paper down tomorrow afternoon. And then, next week will pass quickly too, and in another blink of an eye, I'll be getting the results. The dreadful results. Okay Okay, I'm won't go there yet. But i really hope i can do fairly well, for the exception of POM, please... just a pass will do for that, seriously... I don't dare expect for more. =)

Alright then, back to Macroeconomics...

die

2008-08-11T17:04:00.002+08:00

all these studying is driving me nuts.

i'm tired, can't get anything in already, but i'm not finished yet. DON'T feel like studying anymore!! arghh!!! how how how? i might just die like that

books books books

2008-08-09T21:09:00.002+08:00

tired+ worries+ uncertainity= 2 Fs.

Frastruation
Fear

I totally hate this feeling:( Please make it go away, far far away.

Have to go back to my books.. :( :( :(

lunch break

2008-08-06T13:32:00.002+08:00

lunch break now! i have to get back to school at 2.30pm for excel test. i'm also wondering what the hell am i doing at home now.

This is the last week of school for semester 1. doesn't really feel like it actually. Exams start next week! it's really really fast. thinking back... it's already been a year. So, if it;s fast, everything will be ALL over soon! I really can't wait for the Sem break. Just two more weeks of hellish studying studying and more studying. No tennis too.. not totally but i've cut it down to once a week. that's a lot! :(

i just have to keep telling myself, just 2 more weeks! "just keep swimming, just keep swimming" but actually, i'm already thinking about what to do during the break. get a part-time job? go back to SPCA? or just slack through? hmmm....

Anyway, i'm having my 1st ever driving lesson tmr with Gwen! quite excited actually, like finally i get to drive a car. hope it won't be too much of a disaster. *cross-fingers*

30 mins to go before i leave for school. again...

personality test

2008-07-19T21:57:00.002+08:00

Did a personality test and this was the result i got...

Your view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

guess it's quite accurate except for some points... haha

try it! @ http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
it's quite interesting.

anyway, time to talk about school. i realised that i have been spending more time in school than anywhere else this few weeks. the only reason that i go home for is to sleep. imagine that! school is becoming my home. i don't want!
even if i'm not in school, most of the things that i do or think about revolves around school. be it school work or tennis. tennis is alright, but work, nononono. but what to do? that's my life, boring life. i have no outside life. :(
rushing projects, tests... exams are coming too. tournament, but it's ending soon. oh ya, and getting vexed + pissed off with group mates. some people are just so OMG... unbeilevable. but i beileve i can get through it with some endurance. it's all coming to an end soon. then it will be SEM break! can't wait!

about tournament: played 3 matches. 1st: got freaking trashed. 2nd: played everything out, lost on tie break 7-5, so close. 3rd: won 9-7. 4th:??? the ??? will be known on monday. according to the pattern shown, each match is getting better for me, so hopefully the ??? will be opponent got trashed. =) that's a nice thought!

alrights... long entry.. got to go study for stats! freaking test on monday. but i feel like sleeping!

couldn't handle it

2008-07-13T23:13:00.002+08:00

Guess i really couldn't handle it... but it felt good, so much better. :) anyway, thanks for being there. Told you God put you right beside me for a reason ;)

Now, i've got to prepare myself for the coming week, also known as hell week for me. A lot of things going on but i'm sure i can do it. I've just got to BEILEVE. beileve in myself. i don't wanna let myself down, let the people around me down.

haywire

2008-07-10T11:05:00.002+08:00

One of my wires up there has gone haywired.

I'm in Econs tutorial now and it's only 11am. I've suddenly gone all cold and blank. Something definitely went wrong up there. I hope i can get back to normal when I start tackling the projects later. I should really be listening and paying attention but i really can't find the drive to do so. Freaking deadlines are coming up, ICAs and exams! all in less than 1 month's time. I want to be able to get through in one piece. and i really need a break! how i wish i could just go home and sleep! wth wth wth wth wth wth ...

But 1st i need to get back my confidence.

what a bad day

2008-07-07T23:38:00.002+08:00

today is a bad day for me. or rather, it just so happens that all the bad things have to happen all in one day. and it just so happens that this is only monday, the 1st day of the week.

It started last night, when the wimbledon finals had a rain delay. Federer was down 2 sets, i was very sian already, praying hard that the rain delay will allow him to re-group and think. and in the end, he lost. But it was a close match. according to the score, i could tell that the match was exciting and i really want to watch it all over again. alrights, back to my bad day.

1) 10am lesson was cancelled last minute. everyone was in class already and it was our 1st lesson. could have stayed home until the next lesson which was at 1pm.

2) Econs lecture was a drag. And it was the few times that i actually paid FULL attention.

3) My laptop button "W" came out. It gave me such a scare. And people still laugh, so sad right? :(

4) I lost my friendly match.

5) My racquet slipped out of my hand while serving.

I really felt like shit on the way home just now.

But i guess things are taking a turn for the better. I managed to fix the button back and i can type WWWWWW all i want now. I'm glad. :)

i know my blog is such a bore. so many words... i also want to add some pictures in it, but no pictures... nvm, it's main use is for me to rant and complain, so i don't really care.

sick

2008-07-02T17:07:00.003+08:00

i'm sick, but not very very sick. i just want to sleep everything away!

I didn't go to school today, but everything on my mind was school work. this just goes to show how much work i have. I already have 4 projects on hand. the thing that i hate most is that 4 projects, 4 different groups. it's so difficult to coordinate! why the hell must they make it like that?! it's difficult for us to meet up, and everyone's like booking everyone else asap. argh! and i have no choice but to meet up for 3 projects in one day, which will be tmr. i have to prepare so many things! can't go empty brain-ed[empty handed or we won't be getting anywhere...

I wan to sleep but I have to get excel done too. problem is, my textbook is in school. shit.

heal heal heal

2008-06-26T23:13:00.003+08:00

after the immerse pain i've have through on sunday, my hand is not fixed yet. it's getting on my nerves that when i play tennis, i can't do it properly because of the pain. tournament's coming up, i really can't afford to get injured or not be on-form. this is kinda scaring me. i have around 2 weeks to get my hand healed. i just went for acupuncture, i hope it helped. i can't tell now because the effect won't be present so soon, although i wished it could. i'll be going back for more.

it's hard for my body to go back for more. i'll have to use my mind to do it. i mean, why would your body want to go back for pain? it would be trying it's best to avoid it. it's just a natural reaction. but as the saying goes, no pain no gain. so pain is GOOD. i'm expecting for some gain.

tournament means a lot to me. what i have been training all this while is for the upcoming tournament. disputes, politics, arguements... gone through all these for what? i have waited for a year already. so, please don't take this away from me. don't be so cruel. i really have to be part of it. i really do. please don't let all the effort be gone just like that. please please please

sch starts

2008-06-22T22:24:00.002+08:00

Term break is over. School starts tomorrow. I'm already looking forward to the semestral break.

Lots of questions. 0 answers. I shouldn't even be thinking like that!

Went to see chinese physician. 1 word. Pain. I hope my hand is fixed. i hope my hand is fixed.

The show i'm watching now is so exciting... but i don't understand what's going on now.

cheers

2008-06-19T22:11:00.002+08:00

I feeling great now! just for now, so i better blog before the feeling goes away.

Managed to finish 1 project today. 1 down, 2 more to go. Individual assignment is done too! hurray! I can do it, I can do it. Term break is ending soon and i'm already thinking of the Sem break. So much to look forward to in July except for the submission deadlines.

1. Driving BTT on 16th. I must pass, I must pass
2. My brother coming back on 19th. I must go airport, must go with ballons!
3. Pol-ite tennis at TP. 9th-25th. I must train hard and play to win win win!
4. Allowance at the end of July. I must save save save!

I really really must study tmr morning. somebody please make me study!!
Have not been playing tennis for the whole week, feels werid and i'm afraid, afraid of the pain in my arm. :(

Cheers! stay happy and energized, Hayley!

men...hahaha

2008-06-08T20:02:00.003+08:00

Term break has started!!!

I'm gonna be sexist for the next couple of mintues. I just received an e-mail. It's amusing and at the same time very true. Maybe that's not how the males will think.

Here's a few lines I took from the e-mail.
1. Men are like Weather . Nothing can be done to change them.

2. Men are like Commercials. You can't believe a word they say.

3. Men are like Mascara . They usually run at the first sign of emotion.

4. Men are like Lava Lamps. Fun to look at, but not very bright.

Ain't it true? I know it doesn't apply to ALL of them, but it does to MOST of them.
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Just other lines that i find meaningful....

Be sure that you appreciate everything you've got and be thankful for the little things in life that means alot.

Let people know that they are being appreciated for the things they have done, for being there or for just being them. I try my best to do it. Cause i know it's nice to be appreciated. :D

It's how you deal with failure that determines how you achieve success.
[This line is taken from my calender for the month of June.]

It's hard to accept failure, but once you get pass feeling like shit, you will be able to achieve so much more.
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Federer Vs Nadal soon... I'll keep the hope until it ends. :)

term break

2008-06-05T18:32:00.002+08:00

Time really files... 1 more day of school and then it will be term break. thinking back, 1 year has already passed. I have been in NYP for 1 freaking year. but, i'm still not a year 2 student.

If you have no patience, don't do accounting. The test is tomorrow and i have given up doing anymore accounting. I guess i'll just walk in tomorrow and sit for the test. and then i can RELAX! at least for the weekends. I'm really looking forward. Hayley, Hayley, the weekends will come soon. Persevere!

Although the term break will not actually be a break because of all the assigments and projects to be submitted when we get back. I will not think about it for now. Chill man...

It's already June! My brother is coming back soon!!! His slacking days are soon over... Lol. studying overseas, like in the US and the European countries is so not like in Singapore. Here, people are like so competitve and stress! gosh, what's with that? But seriously, we people here don't really have a choice. Quite sad.

And and and.... I'm still i'm still in school, at Mac... Nope, not for tennis... for POA. I've given up doing already but huiling is still doing... So i'm here blogging, got nothing else to do.

I realised, i have never stopped fighting...