heal heal heal

after the immerse pain i've have through on sunday, my hand is not fixed yet. it's getting on my nerves that when i play tennis, i can't do it properly because of the pain. tournament's coming up, i really can't afford to get injured or not be on-form. this is kinda scaring me. i have around 2 weeks to get my hand healed. i just went for acupuncture, i hope it helped. i can't tell now because the effect won't be present so soon, although i wished it could. i'll be going back for more.

it's hard for my body to go back for more. i'll have to use my mind to do it. i mean, why would your body want to go back for pain? it would be trying it's best to avoid it. it's just a natural reaction. but as the saying goes, no pain no gain. so pain is GOOD. i'm expecting for some gain.

tournament means a lot to me. what i have been training all this while is for the upcoming tournament. disputes, politics, arguements... gone through all these for what? i have waited for a year already. so, please don't take this away from me. don't be so cruel. i really have to be part of it. i really do. please don't let all the effort be gone just like that. please please please