sbm orientation

gosh. the orientation today was not good. not good at all. i didn't like it. i can't tell u exactly what i didn't like about it. i guess it was just the overall feeling of it. it really didn't make me want to go back and have some more. i'm sure it will be fun tml, but i just can't get myself to go. sorry to the OGLs, but i really can't. i really tired and feeling a little feverish already. from my experience, it's really easier and better to be an OGL then to be the one participating in the programme. i don't know why. i hope monday will be a better day.

i feeling weird and i'm scared. but i'm also curious at the same time.

curiosity will conquer fear even more than bravery will. i hope this is true.