turn out fine

why suddenly so happening?



i could really do just fine without all these excitement. maybe it was because i asked those kind of questions. "how do you know you won't regret it?". "how do you know that this is the right desicion?". these questions were in my head from the time i knew i had to make a desicion till now. and i've found that answer. at least the answer that i'm quite sastified with. an answer to myself.



the fact is, one can never know. until one has given it a try, a probation period to get a feel of the environment. it's like trying a new kind of food. for example, durian. some people love it while others totally find the smell... just disturbing. the question is, "how do you know if you will like it?" well, you don't. until you put that into your mouth and give it a taste. it may be revolting, it may also be a taste of paradise. it's a matter of daring to give it a try. another really common example would be making a confession to someone. the lovey-dovey type. "how do you if the other party would return your feelings?". some thing, you don't. till you do it.



so now if i get a similar question how am i gonna answer it? straightforward and truthly or thinkng of another way out? being truthful is the easiest. but will people accept it? some may see it as a bold and rebellious way while others may think that this person has a character of his/her own. when it comes down to considering it, no one in their right mind will want to be rebellious when trying to get a request done right? at least that's what i feel.



last question. "do i be true to my heart or true to reality?". to put it in another way. "can i just say out whatever i feel?"



now now, whatever's that being written above from the 4th paragraph onwards is all part of my imagination. i seriously hope the it will not happen and that i don't have to brood over it. it's just that i want everything to turn out fine. hopefully without having to go through all that. but if it's what i have to do to get what i want, i'll go all out and get it done properly. just don't let my efforts go to waste. that's all i'm asking for.