woohooo

i have been wondering what i have been doing in school. when i was flipping through all those lecture notes, i wondered what i was doing during all those lectures. probably dozing off or dreaming... i can't even answer the most basic question of where did the lecturer stopped. i'm like: oh my, we have already covered so much, how come i have no idea? haha. got to start bucking up already... if not when all the projects starts to pile up, i''m so so dead. but i have yet to feel the stress, so i'll just enjoy my time when i have it. anyways, the mood around my classmates are somehow lightened up already. since we have only known each other, i still can't quite consider them as friends, so it will be classmates for now. i thought that they were they "study study" kind. but they actually asked a stupid qn today. " why we always like go library and study during breaks huh?" obviously i had nothing to say cuz i have never actually sat down and studied so far. and obviously, i have to start doing so as of now. ohhh.... back to books again.....

am i feeling happy, relief or reluctant? not ripped, not left. maybe there's no need for any of that. it's just netural... or is it not? hmmm...