Been a long time since I felt reflective. 2010 is gone, so HELLO 2011!
The years are passing faster, many things happened 1 year ago and it still feels recent.
For school, it's my last semester already. In about 2 months' time, I'll be graduating and hopefully, moving on to greater things. I'll be back to the same old cross roads again and making decisions. This time, there will be lesser roads to choose from and I hope I will make a right one. We'll never know about the choices we make until we choose it and take the path.
I do hope my knowledge have increased in these 3 years. I'll be turning 21 soon, the age of adulthood. Doing adult things and making adult decisions. Am I ready? I don't think so. But is anyone ever ready for it? Don't we all just stumble into our next phase of life and in the blink of an eye, everything is over?
Work hard and enjoy life while you can. It may just end in 2012. =P
Monday, January 03, 2011
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Sunday, October 17, 2010
Life As We Know It
Eat Pray Love wasn't exactly a fantastic movie, neither was is a horrible one. It was just OK. However, it got me thinking, about how so many people are just getting sick and tired of their lives and also losing themselves in the mist of it. Will I end up like her? Just not being able to grasp whatever that is going to be thrown right at my face? It will come hard and fast and I would either brave it through or get thrown off my feet.
No matter how hard we try and how much we do, we always find ourselves in a situation that doesn't entirely makes us happy or satisfies. To put in simply, a situation that sucks. Like it or not, we have just got to deal with it. Let's just admit it, avoiding or beating around the bush doesn't really help at all. Dealing with it involves facing the situation square on and it can get really tough at times. So when you are feeling like the whole world is against you and that your entire life suck, don't just wine about it. DEAL WITH IT! Nobody said it was going to be easy, but once you get through it and when you are looking back, everything would seem like a stroll in the park. I have thought about it and dealing with your situation is the best way to find yourself and be on your way.
There are issues/things that I find it hard to admit, even to myself. Don't you ever get the thought or feeling that if you didn't say something out loud, it wasn't going to be true? But once you said it out loud, everything would become so real that it scares the living daylights out of you? I do. Growing up is one of these issues. I know and am sure that most people, if not everyone has had this issue. It is one of the phases where the whole concept of life itself is being laid upon you. Reality starts knocking on your door and gets you thinking, or rather, worrying about the future. When we were younger and people asked "What do you wanna be when you grow up?" Most would say things like Doctor! Policeman! Fireman! etc. (You get the point) Yes, some people do end up with a job of their ambition. But for the most of us, the answer usually changes and differs quite a lot. Because when you get older and realize that you have to start becoming independent, you will start thinking about stability and which job(s)/lifestyle can give you the most of it. Questions about job, marriage, starting a family, becoming old start to appear. Honestly, I have no answers to any of that at all! Tell me that's normal. (I know it is, but it's just so hard to believe it)
Some may say that I'm worrying way in advance. I mean that next step that I'm taking, is to apply for university (collage) But is it ever too early to think ahead? Time files you know. Better be prepared than be caught off guard. But then again, will anyone ever be prepared enough?
I've had this "growing up" conversation with a good friend about 2 years ago and he shares the same feelings for the situation. However, you never really made any conclusions. What would happen after we leave school? How does it feel to be working full time for many many years? Will we get a job to sustain us? Will we meet someone along the way and get married, have kids? Will we be happy? And the last, most heart stopping question. "How do we deal with death of our loved ones?" That's not a pretty question and I don't want to have to answer it for a very very long time. The answer to all the above: We will never know, the only way to find out is to walk down that path. I have not been in contact with this friend for a very long time. I hope we can find our way back into each others' life and make some conclusions.
It's never easy admitting what you are afraid of, especially if it digs right into your very soul. Yes, here I am admitting that growing up does really freak me out. A lot. There are still things that I find hard admitting to myself, maybe one day, I will. Just like this.
Life is full of decisions
No matter how hard we try and how much we do, we always find ourselves in a situation that doesn't entirely makes us happy or satisfies. To put in simply, a situation that sucks. Like it or not, we have just got to deal with it. Let's just admit it, avoiding or beating around the bush doesn't really help at all. Dealing with it involves facing the situation square on and it can get really tough at times. So when you are feeling like the whole world is against you and that your entire life suck, don't just wine about it. DEAL WITH IT! Nobody said it was going to be easy, but once you get through it and when you are looking back, everything would seem like a stroll in the park. I have thought about it and dealing with your situation is the best way to find yourself and be on your way.
There are issues/things that I find it hard to admit, even to myself. Don't you ever get the thought or feeling that if you didn't say something out loud, it wasn't going to be true? But once you said it out loud, everything would become so real that it scares the living daylights out of you? I do. Growing up is one of these issues. I know and am sure that most people, if not everyone has had this issue. It is one of the phases where the whole concept of life itself is being laid upon you. Reality starts knocking on your door and gets you thinking, or rather, worrying about the future. When we were younger and people asked "What do you wanna be when you grow up?" Most would say things like Doctor! Policeman! Fireman! etc. (You get the point) Yes, some people do end up with a job of their ambition. But for the most of us, the answer usually changes and differs quite a lot. Because when you get older and realize that you have to start becoming independent, you will start thinking about stability and which job(s)/lifestyle can give you the most of it. Questions about job, marriage, starting a family, becoming old start to appear. Honestly, I have no answers to any of that at all! Tell me that's normal. (I know it is, but it's just so hard to believe it)
Some may say that I'm worrying way in advance. I mean that next step that I'm taking, is to apply for university (collage) But is it ever too early to think ahead? Time files you know. Better be prepared than be caught off guard. But then again, will anyone ever be prepared enough?
I've had this "growing up" conversation with a good friend about 2 years ago and he shares the same feelings for the situation. However, you never really made any conclusions. What would happen after we leave school? How does it feel to be working full time for many many years? Will we get a job to sustain us? Will we meet someone along the way and get married, have kids? Will we be happy? And the last, most heart stopping question. "How do we deal with death of our loved ones?" That's not a pretty question and I don't want to have to answer it for a very very long time. The answer to all the above: We will never know, the only way to find out is to walk down that path. I have not been in contact with this friend for a very long time. I hope we can find our way back into each others' life and make some conclusions.
It's never easy admitting what you are afraid of, especially if it digs right into your very soul. Yes, here I am admitting that growing up does really freak me out. A lot. There are still things that I find hard admitting to myself, maybe one day, I will. Just like this.
Life is full of decisions
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